There was a man who put his hand on the hot stove but to compensate for it he put his other hand in a bucket of ice. Is this how we live our life? We are in a mist per reality. People who honestly claim Christianity cannot live lives that reflect such “compensation.”
Our walk with God must be clear. It must be a Damascus Road expression. Saul, late called Paul, saw Jesus in his Road to Damascus experience but had a very clear vision of whom and for what purpose he served the living God. We sometimes pay a price for our past experience or extremes.
Saul witnessed and agreed with the stoning of Stephen. Later in his life he too was stoned and left for dead (Acts 14:19-23). Stephen died (Acts 7:60). In Psalms 139:23, 24 we find King David pleading with God to “search me oh God, and know my ways (interesting comment since in the first few verses of Psalm 139 David confesses that God already knows our every action): try me and know my thoughts). See if there is any wicked way in me.”
David knew his strengths and weaknesses. Those he didn’t know he asked God to “search his every being” and reveal these areas to him. Is it our ignorance or our arrogance that we need to address? Such can only lead us to being double minded (James 1:5-8). Are we the problem or a part of the solution? If not part of the solution then we can only be part of the problem.